If this is your first Open, listen up.
Twice yesterday I had rookies (first years) tell me they were frustrated with their scores in these Opens. They expected to be posting higher numbers and better scores. I think both of them (being girls) hear their emotional brains say "well maybe I really DO suck" and their logical brains say "but this is ha-ard and I should be happy with how I'm doing."
First off, we all know that girls have 2 brains - the emotional and the logical and both of them are equally vocal and important to a girl.
There's two things we have to consider here. This is your FIRST Open. These workouts are HARD. They are designed to begin the process of fleshing out the worlds fittest man and woman, right? And in all honesty (sorry emotion brain) It's not gonna be you.
Next, since this is your first year, you're laying a foundation now. The numbers aren't as big as you'd like them to be and sometimes it's impossible to even find your name on page 122 of the leaderboard but it's OK. You are laying a foundation. This is the grunt work, the super-sucky part. Your first year is meant to surprise you (can we say first double unders, OHS PR's!!) but it will absolutely humble you. Toil through now because NEXT YEAR you'll be glad you did. Next year you'll be able to see progress, know you're fitter and stronger than you were today. This crappy time is so you can have a marvelous time next year. It just sucks right now. But you're not doing this for now, you're doing this for a year from now.
Keep plugging away girl, I think you're doing AWESOME.